Wednesday, June 6, 2012

My heart is broken...

The sweet little girl, Lucy, whose picture is at the top left of my page hasn't got long to live. She has cancer again and there is nothing that can be done. I do not know this family personally but I feel like I do. I have been following her mom's blog for over a year. Her mama posts EVERYTHING about Lucy's journey~good and bad~so I feel like I have had a little window into her soul. I have cried so much today thinking about this little girl and all she has been through in the past year and a half. I feel myself getting angry at God, wondering why He would let her suffer for so long only to take her anyway. That doesn't seem fair! I have been thinking about her mama and keep having to stop myself from thinking about how I would feel if I were her. It is unbearable to think about so I cannot even begin to imagine what she is going through today and what she has been going through for over a year, for that matter. My heart hurts...
A very dear friend of mine (he's also a pastor) said these words when I told him how sad I am and asked him to have his congregation pray for Lucy:
"Sometimes it's hard understanding why things like this happen (especially to small innocent children)...sometimes you can only lean on the fact that GOD knows what's best! He loves that child more than anyone else could ever imagine. I pray that GOD gives you and the child's loved ones the understanding and trust you all need to bring some sense of peace to your spirits. Always remember, God takes everything into consideration before making a decision and HIS decisions are always what's best."
Thanks, TH. That is so true and my head gets it. Now if my heart could just understand it...
Please pray for no suffering for sweet Lucy and for her parents, older sister, younger brother and everyone who knows and loves her to find the peace that only God can supply.

1 comment:

  1. When I read this this morning on her blog, all I could do was sob. And go back to Rev 21 over and over. All of this mourning, pain, and death will end someday. I'd be thrilled if that day were right this second. It's gut-wrenching.